Remembering How to Wait
There's a meme joking that the last month of pregnancy is over 1,000 days long. Back in the innocent second trimester, I didn't think that would feel true for me.
Now it's quite a different story.
As I sit here just days from my due date, I feel like I'll be huffing, puffing, and grunting every time I sit down or stand up for the rest of eternity. Not to mention walking at the speed of a turtle, getting bitterly betrayed by Braxton Hicks contractions, and taking 10 whole minutes to roll over in bed.
Sure, there are things I could still be cleaning, prepping, proofing and learning ... but I'm just so ready for this baby to get here!
"Please help me not to be impatient about baby coming!" I scrawled in my prayer journal recently. "Help me to make the most out of waiting."
We've Forgotten How to Wait
Waiting isn't just difficult for moms in their third trimester. No one likes to wait. But it's always been a part of life, until recently.
Thanks to brilliant technology, so much of what happens in our lives these days is instant. Even when there are moments that require waiting, we have the means to distract ourselves from that wait with other forms of instant gratification.
In a doctor's waiting room, we scroll through Facebook or play a game on our smart phones. At stop lights, we check for any new text messages. I find myself snatching up my iPhone when my husband briefly leaves the room, as if a few seconds alone with my thoughts is too much to bear.
The Importance of Anticipation
In this age of instant gratification and constant distraction, we often lose something precious.
Why does anticipation matter? It gives us the opportunity to think about what our expectations even are and to reflect on what we hope for. That kind of thought and reflection can teach us a lot about ourselves.
It helps us to more fully appreciate what we are waiting for — whether it's something as insignificant as a home cooked meal or as monumental as the birth of a child.
There's also a spiritual component to anticipation. In the Christian tradition, we anticipate Christmas — the celebration of the first coming of Christ — with Advent. We anticipate the celebration of his resurrection at Easter with Holy Week. We're taught to anticipate his second coming in the way we live our every day lives.
Don't Waste the Wait
So, waiting matters. It matters because without the wait, we don't have the time to reflect, hope and grow. We don't have time to anticipate.
In these last few days (or weeks ... but I'm hoping days) of my first pregnancy, my goal is to make the most of the waiting. Rather than just distracting myself from the wait with endless social media scrolling or meaningless Netflix reruns, I want to truly anticipate. To reflect on my hopes and expectations and even fears as I prepare for motherhood. To pray about those things. To learn more about myself before I meet someone completely new.
Is there something you're anticipating? Don't waste the wait.